Chapter 27

So, after seven months, Jonney and I are sort of not dating and sort of single.

The day I met him was the day after I decided to pursue Andy further was hopeless. I thought to myself, "Hey, maybe I'll be single for a while. I don't need a boyfriend to survive. Andy can suck my big black cock." Those may have been exact words, I'm not quite sure. I was saying all this to Stahulak, late at night, probably staring out my window and secretly hoping to see cars and skaters pass by. My street was empty.

The next afternoon, I met Jonney, and things were never the same ever again. Being with Jonney has been one of the best things to ever happen to me. I never thought much about Andy, except when I saw him at school, waiting for Stephanie, and even then I didn't think about him much. But then, we started talking again. We were friends on MySpace. We talked on Messenger.

And I realized that I still care about Andy a lot more than I should. I care what he thinks of me, and whether he's dying from frustration because there is no keyboard part in Breaking the Law (warning: this video contains very thin bar bending, which may make you laugh way hard.) and he's supposed to come up with one, and I care if he's coming over to hang out. I do care, and that I can't deny.

Which made me realize that I don't just care about him, I still have feelings for him, and I never got over him. It all spells pain for Jonney.

I had to make a choice between hurting him now by saying we take a break, or hurting him forever by staying, Jonney always thinking that I'm just doing it for his sake. So we took a break. There's about ten million things I need to sort out right now, it isn't just Andy. I need to figure out what work I'll need to start doing in a few short months to get scholarships, and in almost a month, I need to find a job. But a large part of it is Andy.

So, I don't know what the future holds. I guess it'll all come down to a few days, weeks maybe, and how much drama can be generated by the now tentative friendship between Andy and I. There'll be endless talks about this and that and how it's all my fault. And maybe at the end of this, we'll all just forget our harsh words and join forces in order to fight the giant dragon, Xthuzilla, who will most definitely threaten the local community center that we all so dearly love.