Catcher in the rye

I feel a little bit like I've been shot in the arm, or something. It's a weird state of numbness that isn't necessarily the end of the world, just kind of, sort of, almost. Jonney and I are taking a break from our relationship. The last time I said that to somebody, I was on the phone for hours listening to him cry. But this time, it was so abrupt. I walked away and couldn't believe it'd just happened.

I'm not sure what to say right now. Jonney's in a lot of pain because of me, and I never wanted that to happen. He's been my best friend for months, always been helpful, and a great boyfriend. For now, I need to sort my shit out and get a better grip on my life.